Gaheris Rhade (
truth_is_cold) wrote2013-02-09 07:45 pm
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[There is apparently one section on the fifth floor that's full of royally pissed off people. This lovely little announcement starts out with the sound of a hand slamming a communicator several times because the thing just isn't turning on fast enough, or working to his liking.]
Anyone up for a game of chess or Pai Sho or... practically anything? I have a ridiculous amount of games.
I'll need about twenty minutes to clean my room. [Because he has been breaking things left and right.]
I think I'll be leaving soon. At least for a little while. [Possibly for good. He's not sure yet. He's thinking that might be the case.] I need someone to be responsible for Ben for me, but I need to see my daughter. "Blame" whoever you like, I can't be of any use right now.
[There is apparently one section on the fifth floor that's full of royally pissed off people. This lovely little announcement starts out with the sound of a hand slamming a communicator several times because the thing just isn't turning on fast enough, or working to his liking.]
Anyone up for a game of chess or Pai Sho or... practically anything? I have a ridiculous amount of games.
I'll need about twenty minutes to clean my room. [Because he has been breaking things left and right.]
I think I'll be leaving soon. At least for a little while. [Possibly for good. He's not sure yet. He's thinking that might be the case.] I need someone to be responsible for Ben for me, but I need to see my daughter. "Blame" whoever you like, I can't be of any use right now.
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But Cato graduated and I have to go try to save the galaxies and this time not get our friends killed doing it. I have a responsibility to them.
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I know. I'm still proud of you.
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I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure that we see each other again, one way or another. I had a Nietzschean compliment me on my ability to turn the universe to my will, and that's what I will.
Are you going to come back to the Barge? Ben needs you, you know. I don't think there's any warden here who can serve him better.
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[He says it honestly. He doesn't know if he'll return, or if he's the best one for Ben. He knows that Davros is here and that Braxiatel needs to know about that.] You have a universe to save, and I need to get away from a man before I murder him.
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You go see your baby girl, and give her a kiss from her Uncle Dylan. Even though she's never met me, I'm sure we'll get along great when I finally get introduced. And I do plan for you to introduce us sometime.
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It's always harder to say things, but he realizes that this might be his last chance. An "I love you" is a terrible good-bye. An apology is not.] I'm sorry, by the way. I'm sorry I didn't trust you to listen to logic when I was angry with you. And I'm sorry that didn't figure out the universe didn't want to bend to my will sooner. I'm sorry that I didn't just resign when I learned about the treaties, and I cost you the future you wanted.
I don't want to know if you accept them. I just want you to know they're there. [He finally looks at him, tired.]
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Gaheris says he doesn't want to know if Dylan accepts the apologies, but he can show him anyway. He takes his face in his hands and kisses him.]
You take care of yourself while you're gone. Or make that fine-suited gentleman take care of you. You're important to me and I don't want to hear that you've been being too hard on yourself when I see you again.
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At least he's pushed Ladd to the back of his mind for a moment.]
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Don't fail at your mission. I don't want that sort of responsibility again.
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[He smiles self-deprecatingly.]
If I fail, Trance'll probably recruit Refractions next or something.
[Then, more seriously.]
If it doesn't work, I'll come back here. I'll be okay.
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Now I just have to talk myself out of murder for more reasons than it could trap me on the ship.
[And possibly not being angry that someone else didn't listen to him and it cost them their life.] Lua death tolled without me knowing it.
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Killing her murderer won't change it. Especially not here where he'll get back up again in a few days. And your freedom is way more valuable than temporary revenge.
I'll tie you down if I have to. I know you've got some silk rope around here somewhere. [He doesn't think it will be necessary, but anything that helps Gaheris talk himself out of it.]
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[And he turns away from Dylan to put his head in his hands. Part of him is really angry at her, too, for putting that failure so far ahead of her friends. She's a victim here, though, and that makes it difficult. He knows she had to go through horrors if Ladd was responsible. But then again, he's just mad, and when Nietzscheans get angry they tend to hang onto it.]
Don't worry. I'll leave before I do anything.
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[He rests his hand on Gaheris' back, over his shoulder blade.]
I'll be here waiting when you get back.
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Alright. [He clears his throat, and then laughs a little sadly.] It was a nice two months, anyway. Save for one rampage. It really was. [He was actually happy, without conflicting emotions in himself. He was sure about what he wanted. That almost never happens for him. He's not even sure, now.]
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We aren't saying goodbye. Not quite yet. I'll wait for you to come back and then we can have a good goodbye, not one that's got a cloud of murder and violence hanging over it.
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[But he understands what Gaheris is getting at. And when it's time to say goodbye he won't leave him with those painful words.]
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I mean it, you be careful. And don't beat yourself up too much.
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I don't like to see you hurt, whether it's someone else hurting you, or you hurting yourself.
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There's another rant stowed up, but it doesn't come out, instead he just stands there.]
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[He looks around the thrashed room.]
Not so much this time, though.
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